Bleeding Memories

 

I was reminded of the day we held hands and swore to live for one another,to be together to eternity.My heart beats fast at the very thought of me realising you were my heaven,on visualising my future through your eyes which feared to look anywhere else like I would vanish the next second.I had always wanted our relation to be like the wick of a burning candle saved from blowing off by the slightest of the slightest breeze,always being protected and careful. I thought about it,not once but infact many times before I finally concluded that it was high time we said "GOOD BYE".My strength seeped at the very thought of parting,my voice faded and I wriggled with pain on how horrible you could have felt.Drowned in depression,yet I continue to battle with misery but I hold no hope of surviving..surviving for you.Memories flood my mind and I shut my eyes tight to chase them away till my cheeks and palms share the moist and the tears die at my lips.Disastrous moments have struck me when you not knowingly crept into my thoughts ,my dreams,my vision.Helpless-me,I could do nothing but cry hard till I grew tired.Never was a peaceful night promised to me eversince then.I would either wake up abruptly in the middle of the night or suffer from insomnia spending night listening to the soft thud of tears falling from the corners of my eyes,onto the pillow.My act of abandoning you could have been equivalent to me stabbing your heart but I must have shed more tears than the blood that dripped from your heart.Fury blazes in me as I realise I have obeyed the voice from INFERNO and I bow guiltily before my angels.As I bathe my sinful act in tears,I plead forgiveness and confess on how regretful I am, on having "UNTANGLED FROM YOUR BOUNDLESS LOVE FOR ME".Apologetically I ask you with pure sincerity and affection,CAN I NOT DREAM OF ANOTHER TOMORROW TO BE YOURS ONLY ? ?